Lemons

It's amazing how shitty occurrences in your life can just throw you completely off kilter. Bad news came through at work today that just made me fucking furious. I mean mad. I thought that going to the gym would help me calm down, work it out and that I would come out leaving fresh and care free. Well, that didn't happen. The entire time I was in class I wanted to leave. I think at one point I actually said out loud "I want to kill myself". Obviously, I don't want to kill myself. Nor should I let work ever get me this riled up BUT DAMN.

In the past I would have skipped the workout and gone straight to the bar. Or perhaps straight to a bowl of pasta. But no. Not this time.

I'm at home. About to make myself a salad and then have an Amy's bowl...total maybe 500 calories or so. According to my Lose It App I have 700 or left for the day (without incorporating the workout-- which was lame as duck).

Losing weight is going to be a daily battle like this one. I'm going to go ahead and let you know I'm not going to win all of these battles. I will lose some-- but hopefully I'll win many more than I lose. I know I'm also not going to lose 5lbs every week (WOULDN'T THAT BE AWESOME?)....but rather it will be up and down.

Here's some interpretive dance to cheer me up...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bxUiHNyO04c&feature=youtu.be