stupid stupid ski pants

my ski pants are too small. i mean, they will pull on but they are super tight. and considering we have a snow event this weekend I figured i would buy some new ones in 1 size larger...even if they will be too big in no time (fingers crossed). they arrived today. and were equally tight. i cried.
what an emotional journey this whole thing is. i refuse to be uncomfortable for 2 days on the slopes so i ordered the next size up. i cried again. but that's all ok i imagine-- i'll have good days and bad days on this journey. to keep my motivation high i'm reminded of my skinnier days. here's a picture of me posing with my favorite celebrity ever about 30 pounds ago.